SURRENDER- Purpose? Passion? What's The Difference?

“Passion Stems From Our Purpose.” 

     I have dated surfers for most of my life. The irony was that once I was in a committed relationship with my beloved wave rider, I would not want them to surf. I wanted them to get responsible and join the “real world” like mine (yeah, right!). Surfing had become my competition to see whether I was really enough. To see who they would pick, testing them and convincing myself that I was NOT a “surf widow.” Not an easy thing for me to admit, but I was jealous of surfers and their passion. Jealous of what their faces revealed after completing a smokin’ hot session. I was jealous of their secret, and I wanted what they had.

    After defending his rights for “wave time,” my first love, Jay, once stated... 

     “I know what the problem is with you, Kathleen, you need to find a passion!” 

      My words bit back, “Nooo, you need to get a job!” 

     His truth hit straight to my bones. I was in my twenties. I knew there was a grain of truth; otherwise, I would not have become so defensive. Although he seemed to have come from a judgmental place, I am now grateful for his honesty.  Jay shined a light on my face, and I chose to close my eyes. My mind did not want to grasp the truth of his statement. Often, when someone is relaying what they know from a judgmental space, we only see their fear and miss the message that could help us create the peace that we long for. One might think that I would want to stop dating surfers. Nope, I was far from done with them and actually ended up marrying one. But his time, he had a REAL job!

      The Kaptain was not the typical blonde/skinny surfer, but his love for the sport was palpable. To see his face brighten when the surf is up? Priceless. And, if he gets tubed? He is the sweetest and most generous, thoughtful and loving soul a wife could hope for. I often think of us as the two characters in the sitcom, Dharma and Greg. Or as, Yin and Yang. A perfectly mismatched couple where I love him unconditionally despite my liberal programming. Often, being given opportunities to grow in oneness and see our mirror despite our differences. Opportunities to remember what really matters and honor each other, regardless.      

     After the honeymoon was over,  old fears about being dismissed and not having a passion like surfing, surfaced.  I did not remember what my soul’s calling was or if I even had one. I wanted to be...STOKED. I wanted to be…me. But, but who am I?

     In my core, I knew I had a purpose.  Everyone does. I did know THAT. And my ex boyfriend’s words continued to haunt me…

     ”You need to find a passion, Kathleen!” 

     My mind would scream back, “SHUT UP!” 

     Until, I listened to what my heart knew all along... our purpose is to love and allow ourselves  to be loved. With that recognition, I created my passion for writing and helping others live a more joyful and peaceful life despite it all. With that passion, I was recognized by the founder of The Daily Love, Mastin Kipp, and asked to be his Contributor. This was a dream come true for me. “Passion stems from our purpose.” When we align with the truth and know that love is the ONLY purpose, our passions will bubble up, and we will see life in a whole new way. 

     I am a HUGE supporter of the Kaptain’s surfing AND traveling to faraway, distant lands in search of some “tasty waves.” Even when I do not have help with our son. It is my husband’s connection to his heart, and I encourage him to follow it.

     Cinnamon lovingly reminds me that “We can only give what we’ve got.” When I was not living my infinite soul’s calling, I was not happy for the surfers in my life.  I was not happy for the Kaptain. I was unwilling to give him the unconditional love he deserved. When I returned to love, my passions surfaced. No need for jealousy when peace reigns.Your love and passion are within you, waiting to be claimed.