INTRODUCTION

"Mirror, Mirror, On The Wall" 

     There is a common theme in this world when we are not living our truest potential, deep in your heart, you know what it is. We tend to distract ourselves by focusing on how other people could change and be better. In every moment we are given the opportunity to say “yes,” to learn to want what we need for our spiritual growth, release our addiction to needing life to be different than it is, and see that everyone is our mirror, here to help us continue to grow. Often, there is a lot of finger pointing and how other people or our own circumstances need to change so that we can feel more comfortable. Sometimes we do not recognize or take responsibility. It is our programmed beliefs and feelings that need to change in order for us to create the peace we all deserve. “Change Requires Change!” Some of us have heard this many times, but how many of us have resisted the discomfort and dedicated ourselves to a discipline of reprogramming by choosing love while becoming more aware of our fears? I am so relieved to say, I have created this discipline. By changing the parts that did not work, I have created a peace that I once thought was unattainable.

     Finding Francesca In The Four Blood Moons provides an opportunity to tap into your own innate knowing that you can trust and rely on by mirroring The Recovery Of A Wounded Heart. I've done this through various blogs in the last eight years, plus additional entries that I have not yet revealed. By allowing Cinnamon H. Lofton to become my teacher, helping me facilitate what I already know, I have embraced the light of love that we ALL really are. I have often created the experience of living a common life with the uncommon decision of what it truly means to surrender my fears and choose love. Lofton’s quotes from her book, Here, Now, will be scattered throughout Finding Francesca with double quotation marks and italics, further highlighting my message with her guidelines for living a loving life, a moment to moment practice of letting go of fear. 

     As you, the reader, set aside the details of my story (“Love gets lost in the details”), you can choose to parallel our similar human emotions of impatience, intolerance, vanity, victimization, unworthiness, loneliness, and anxiety. All these could be wrapped up in the debilitating box of fear. You may see then that you are not alone and are ultimately responsible for changing your fear stories which keep you from a life of happiness. This book began with the intention for you to recognize that Love is not a force outside of us, but rather, it is in us. HERE, NOW- the only moment that exists. As the pages are digested, I invite you to laugh, cry, marvel in the mystic and create intimacy as we grow in the spirit of oneness. This book is not about a religion, inviting you to use any word relating to a higher power that resonates with your own heart. Spirituality is “The surrender to being an instrument for love in the world.” No need to keep looking for your purpose, there is only one purpose: to love and allow yourself to be loved. Please join me in breathing and relaxing into your experience of the truth. When you recognize love dwelling in me as I face my ego, I hope you will create the willingness to mirror the human experience in yourself and desire to go through the unknown and sometimes scary spiritual process of change, making it simpler and more exciting. 

     Throughout Finding Francesca In The Four Blood Moons, I am here, supporting you in making the choice to change that which requires change, gently (and sometimes not so gently) reminding you to return to your natural state of being. Amaze yourself in reclaiming your birthright to freedom and spread the gift to others, one loving gesture at a time.

PREFACE

“Once upon a time there was a Little Soul. And this Little Soul knew itself to be the Light, part of ka-gillion Lights that make up the whole of the universe. But the Little Soul wanted to experience itself as the Light. And God said that if the Little Soul wanted to know the Light, it must also know the Darkness. For how else can one know Up without Down, Hot without Cold, Fast without Slow? Then the Little Soul understood that in getting to know Who It Really Is, it would have to know the opposite, “this is a great gift,” God said, “because without it, you could not know what anything is like.” So the Little Soul embarked upon an adventure, and perhaps it is very much like the adventure that we all share on this planet we call Earth.”

-Neale Donald Walsch-The Little Soul and the Sun

     Fifty years ago, I am awaiting birth. As I choose my life’s contract with whom I like to call, God, my little soul is over-the-top excited. Like most of us, my agreement with God contains many challenges and triumphs. My personal mission is to experience oneness. To inevitably be in the world, not of it. To openly share and help those whom ever are willing through the recovery of a wounded heart. 

     God makes sure that I am fully aware that the decision is all mine. We shake on the agreement. This assures that whatever shows up in earth school, I am more than “able” to handle it. The question begs, “Will I be willing?” For Love knows that I am in for an adventurous ride to say the least. It will take me almost fifty years to make the choice to fully awaken and accept the truth of the sacred and powerful heart. 

The Contract: 

     Once I am born into the bright lights of the sterile maternity ward in Hollywood, a pink hat is placed on the few hairs of my head, and I am given the name Kathleen Frances Reynolds. The memory of my soul family, including my truest self, slowly begins to fade away for many self absorbed years, an unconscious reaction to emotional neglect and arrested development. 

     My challenges will not be more than I can manage, and I will be willing to receive help from a loving, no nonsense Italian angel, here on earth. She will be in her mid 60‘s, and her name will be Cinnamon H. Lofton. I will recognize her as a unique gift to those whom are willing to see her all encompassing beauty and receive her words of infinite wisdom. Cinnamon will come to me as a humble servant to mirror my heart and trigger my fears. I will be courageous enough to go against people’s skepticism, and my life will take a dramatic turn down a path of whom most have not traveled. In the most humbled ways, I will experience Cinnamon’s spiritual approach to teaching through her channeled guidelines for loving where love seems not to be. It will not take me long to recognize Cinnamon as my heart “mama.” 

     With my willingness to be reborn to Love through her unyielding patience and grab-me-by-the-neck moments, I will begin to transform my life and create a freedom that I never “thought” possible. This will just be the beginning of an arduous journey. I will be given opportunities to grow and become an example of being who I really am. I will learn the hard way and will often resist the contract, thinking, “WHY IN THE HELL WOULD I SIGN UP FOR THIS?”   

     God had one more question... 

     “Little soul, are you still sure you want to go?”

     

FOREWORD

     I have known Francesca since when she was Kathleen. Dear Kathleen. So troubled and unaware of her unique beauty. We met when she was at the end of her rope. That’s when she gave me the honor of helping her to return to the sacred spirit from whence she came. With all her troubles and distress when she arrived at my door, (like an adorable and lost little puppy), she was still quite light and cosmetically beautiful. To see her now though, in her natural state of loving, is the ultimate in joy for me. 

     After doing extraordinary inner work to surrender her addictions as she faced her fears one by one, she has become even more naturally beautiful. 

     I encourage anyone to read her book and be inspired by her journey. Her name was waiting for her and she wears it well. Francesca Braver, daughter of my heart.

                                                                Cinnamon H. Lofton
                                                                Spiritual Servant

                                                                Author of Here, Now

ACKNOWLEDGMENTS

FINDING FRANCESCA IN THE FOUR BLOOD MOONS: ACKNOWLEDGMENTS: To my one and only son, Thank you for including me in your life contract. It has taught me more about choosing love and  transformat...

ACKNOWLEDGMENTS

To my one and only son,

Thank you for including me in your life contract.

It has taught me more about choosing love and 

transformation, more than I could have imagined.

I love you!

To Tanja,

my soulmate, best friend, and sister.

God knew that I could 

not have managed my life without your sweet 

and loyal spirit by my side.

I am beyond grateful.

Always us.

To Cinnamon,

my teacher, friend, and mama.

Until I met you, I never knew what it meant to 

love and be loved unconditionally.

Thank you for helping me to know and claim my truest self.

NONE of this would be possible without you.

Forever and even then...

To God,

I thank you for the privilege of making

the choice to give you my life.